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Thursday, December 27, 2012×
"Beautiful things happen when you distance yourself from negative shit"
 its been so long yet i can still feel that sadness and heartache in me. its really amazing how all the sadness come back to me when i thought that i really forgotten it all maybe im just trying to lie to myself that it no longer hurt but actually when i thought back of all the images and memories, it does. But today, i felt so awesomely happy and blessed. happy because i was with my buddies and they are the ones who actually cheer me up (though they dont know i was really sad the previous night!) blessed because i know i can count on my girlfs, my bff, my buddies. because at least i still have them, have them by my side with all the fun and things we do together. It's true, beautiful things will only happen if you are positive enough. i used to think im so weak and inferior, and no better. there are so much insecurities in me, so much of negative-ness in me that i really feel 'if only im not me' its really difficult for me not to make comparisons, sometimes i feel good but most of the times i really feel bad. bad in a sense that I AM BAD. Maybe its just a coincidence, that im free and buddies are nearby drinking and i just happened to join them again, i still count my blessings, still thankful for them, for the fun and adventure we went through tonight. its really a hell of a night, no club, no party, but just drinking, and some 'adventure' we went, and some talks. whatever it is, i know i need to get my shit together and not being so negative all the time because i know it wont do any good to me and being negative doesnt mean i will make things positive either And trust me, i have no intention to make this post to be 'oh-so-inspirational' i was on tumblr as usual and this image appeared while i was scrolling, and really, the image completely express out what i was feeling tonight. × Labels: Life - IV |
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