Pretty rough week even though all my lessons end at 5PM 

Things are not going well for work but oh well, not surprised. Initially I was thinking if this was my fate or something, like all the bad things just come at one go, but after the small talk, hmmmm. Maybe it's just a phase (or i hope so!) 

I think I'm a person who get defeated easily by a few setbacks and you know, you just think a lot and that's it. 

I sometimes question myself if I am really cut out for this

Like I will think that I done the wrong way or didn't handle it very well. 

Comparisons are made easily especially when I have colleagues who are going through the same thing with me, I'm just so different that I would question myself is this right? 

It's not the first time I'm having such thoughts but I really try hard not to think to that negative side because I'm already in this and I need to make the best out of it instead of whining and complaining, right?

And after the small talk, it just came into my mind that everyone have things that they need to improve on; it's really your decision if you want to make the changes or just stay the way you are. 

I'm trying hard now, at least at the start, I know where my weaknesses are and I can improve if I want. 

It's going to be a long journey, I don't wanna give up as well. Since this is my decision afterall. 

I'm trying & I hope I can be better. 

Again, who don't want to, right?