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SEOULxSOUL •xiaosi / junsi •kavenyou.com |
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Monday, May 28, 2012× I was thinking about the conversation i had with supervisor today. because last night i was really quite unhappy with the whole internship thingy. because we didnt get to rest, okay we did, ONE DAY. andddd its tiring. i know work is tiring, i know we cant do anything about it, but i just feel like i've overworked. like others at least have 2 days of rest but us? 1 day. trust me, im so unhappy yesterday night that i cant even sleep and was ranting to friends about it not to forget, i even saved a draft, lolz but i guess its not appropriate to talk about the bad things, since its INTERNSHIP. I told supervisor, really no joke and its so tiring. i hate travelling everyday, i hate going out everyday and only be back by night. i can wake up, i dont feel sleepy during work, its just your mind and body are trying to tell you they are exhausted. even robots, need rest, dont they? and then he said "I need work everyday also!" *roll eyes, its different. or maybe we are pampered/spoilt. i mean normally we dont have to experience all these, not in school and lessons. again, its the same old word 'overworked' then he said "eh its good what, you get to earn more money" haha, no joke everyone is grumbling and complaining how tired they are. their motivation to keep going on? THE MONEY, $$$ and maybe the pathetic 1 day off ? in my heart, i was like oh please, i would want my off day rather than the money. so i guess, if i have to choose either freedom or money? FREEDOM. i dont really care about the money, of course we need money to eat, to survive. but if im not that broke, i could still survive without going to work, yes, i would want my freedom. very much. Been thinking a lot a lot these days. work is really suffocating me, and taking my freedom away. it seems no biggie or big deal, to others, to you. maybe. because intern is like this, work is like this, the future of you will be like this. but for now, i dont like it. i really dont. or maybe i've been enjoying my freedom so much, during the holidays and school time, especially my weekends. i dedicate a lot of time on work, lesser time for myself, my friends, my family. this is sad. but no choice, its not up to us to choose. i will get through this, or maybe all these bad feelings and thoughts will go away soon. i hope. X |
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