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SEOULxSOUL •xiaosi / junsi •kavenyou.com |
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Sunday, July 3, 2011× So our beasty boys landed in SG and held a fan meet on Sat. I didnt go for it but definitely my twitter timeline & fb are flooding everything about it. and yes. our cool, sexy, fierce and awesome poppin's dragon junhyungie cried @ the end of the event. no one really knows why he cried, but all are guessing because of the news of him and hara got out, and was touched because our awesome sg fans are supporting him didnt i mention that junhyunggie actually closed his twitter before the news got out i think he somehow feared that the bad comments gonna flood his twitter. but yes, he cried. FIRST time, ever, in SG. I don't know about how others feel, but it was early in the morning when i saw their dating photos leak out. i felt hurt. extremely hurt and sad and disappointed. and asked myself "why her?! why her?!" i cannot believe that they are together, and i swear, its random. i find them so random to be together and i dont know why junhyung love her in the first place. then slowly on i have to accept the fact that, yes they are together. Junhyung is not mine, in the first place. he will never be with me, ever, ever. i know that its just that this are such feelings of a fan will feel for their biased like whenever i saw photos of him, i will think of the girl. then my mind starts to run wild, like have they kiss already, do they send each other sweet text messages even though they are in different countries sometimes. and when both are on the same music show, will they talk to each other at a corner, and whenever i watch junhyung close up singing, those hand signals he made, is it out of random or does he made it just for her ? you know, there are so much, so much of things you will think, I never imagine any of my biased would get attached, and this is the first time ever, i felt so much of unexplainable feelings inside me. but of course, i do accept and glad to love him as much as i do, no matter if its the past, or the present. because he's still the junhyunggie i loved. he's still the one, who got so much swagger, and i do know he love his fans, no less than how much he loves his girlf. At first i cried when i heard the news and the photo that he cried. then slowly on, i felt happy. happy because at least he's touched and know that there are fans out there supporting him still happy because he found his happiness happy because he is happy. rather stupid but this is something, not normal people could feel the same way as i do. i still love him as much as he loves his girlf and his coke XD i still support him and the group, nothing will change that. in any case, in any circumstances or situation, any time. Be happy junhyunggie! ♥  Im gonna make you love me,I love you, im happy because i have you because of you you you you, i only think of you. ♥ Labels: Junhyung - no matter what. |
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