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SEOULxSOUL •xiaosi / junsi •kavenyou.com |
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Monday, March 28, 2011× Even though they are Separated, I was actually watching homin's backstage footage of their WHY album, mom and sis know they are my favourite babies of all, then they asked me "Why only left 2? I thought there are 5 people?" that is when my heart sank again, whenever people never failed to asked me the same question again and again, I can't help it but to get sad and cried all over again. I explained to them why they are separated and their company issues etc. then they asked me again. "Then why these 2 don't want follow and be together with the 3?" I hesistated. I think the real reason lies between themselves. though Im sure they have their own reasons for choosing it this way.  I feel kinda lonely after that. like as if the name Gods rising from the East, reflected on only 2 of them, when actually. they belong to 5 people. though a lot of people know that they are separated, some though they are gone for good. some even asked me "I thought they disband already?" yes, some might even get tired from all these shit of believing and supporting them. some might think negatively, or accept the way it is already. Things can really turn out unexpectedly. I can still remember how much I adore the 5 of them so much, super happy and hyperventilates when they made a comeback in Korea. then they have their asia concert tour around the world. remember how loud Yoochun shout "Cassiopeia" during 'somebody to love' song. then they come back again in Japan, attending ceremonies, and year-end shows, having concerts again, thats when su baby injured and couldnt fully perform in japan concert. but the rest of them still support him, giving each other strength. then suddenly came this news that it will become 3-2. I carried this fear around me whenever I read their news. I am really scared that they are going to disband, fear that they might disappear or even fade out in music industry. though another side of me, wishes that everything would settle nice and good. everything will back to normal, they will still be 5 together again. believe that this is only a small obstacle in front of them. Not. after all these torturing months, I can clearly see that, probably. or maybe they will stay as it is. until further good news will come by. I always carry this faith, believe them and love them all I could. not only for 3, but for 5 of them. yes, they have separated. yes, they are going their own ways. but there's one thing that they will never change. is the love they have, for us. the burning passion they got, for singing, for music.  there's a lot for me to wonder. like if they still contact each other, still stay in touch, still.. still love each other like how they used to when they fight and work hard together as 5 ? I still believe. I still want to believe in them. and stay positive for everything, there might be little setbacks or news that made me frown. there might be news that maybe good to the 3, not to the 2. there might be a turnaround for everything, be it the good or the bad. I still going to believe, and love them as a whole.  After all these months, of used to seeing them as 3-2 I think, their countless appearances in media, had made me realised. we already come so far. there's no reason we should give up them right now. but to keep on believing. its gonna be a long struggle, a long, pain and suffering battle. but, everything is going to be alright. just one day. someday, one day. Labels: TVXQ ; even tho they are separated |
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